I am scared…..
I am scared of what I am feeling right now. The feeling of imbalance, insecurity and jealousy.
I do not know where I stand, I do not know where to go.
I am scared that I’m just holding everything in and one day it will all fall apart.
I am tired, tired of being strong. Pretending that I am okay when I know I’m not.
I am tired of pretending that I do not care about you, that I do not love you.
I am hurt when you do not appreciate the things I do for you.
I am jealous of people who enters your life and you ignore me.
I am jealous of people who you fall in love easily. People who occupies your mind….and your heart when it could be me.
I am jealous of beautiful people that makes you to stare at them with awe.
I am jealous of people who are thin that you take a second look when they pass by.
I am angry with myself for being jealous.
I am angry with you for making me feel this way.
I am angry with myself for letting you make me feel this way.